is it that normal for the rich to flaunt and brag about their lifestyle while the less rich ones boast about how much more independent they are than the rest, having put through many difficult moments in life leaving them with not much of a choice to not lead a comfortable and convenient life?

well, at least that was what i've noticed thus far.

i just do not understand why. why? why do they have to do it and irritate each other out?

is it that difficult to understand that everyone lead lives that are different from one another. we come from various backgrounds and its only natural that most of us see our lives differently. coming from a rich background or a poor one does not matter to me. its about character and attitude.

the reason why i'm actually bothered by all this is due to the new set of friends or people that i'm exposed to now. it can be really irritating. and that is why at times, i just couldnt be bothered and simply keep quiet. my tolerance level has increased significantly. being in this new place, make me a much more reserved person. its really hard to express things to them. they do not seem to understand. everyone has a very complex way of thinking. its just hard. its freaking hard to make friends with them. they do not treat life easily. i just do not know why.

life should be carefree. yes at times it may be hard but that does not mean that you have to show people how much you are suffering because it does not bring much help except gaining sympathy from those around you. i dunno but i feel kind of caught in the middle with all of them. its close to impossible to talk freely because all of them are very sensitive to minor things. everything that i say have to be carefully thought over. it truly sucks.

the other issue that i'm really irritated and bothered with are their views on relationships. after looking at the ac yearbook and looking at the people that i have interacted with, they were seriously shocked that i was not attached to anyone. i told them that relationships are not just about, wow-you look so hot and i wanna be with you, kind of thing.apparently most of them are like that. and and they love commenting on every girl that they see, thus comparing their taste. so much for not judging the book by its cover. it is bad.

basically. the company of friends that i have now kind of sucks. but whatever la. the bottom line is to just be ignorant and sit back, appreciating the fact that you are not like them.

woohoo! im finally back, achieving to a small extent, civillian status. the past 2wks have been madness! i couldn't believe it but but i managed to complete my combat skills badge course! it was really challenging especially the long endless route march, oklar not endless but rather over a distance of 32km which had to be done in 6hrs. marching with a load of at least 13kg excluding the rifle was really not a joke. the feeling sucks especially when you reach the 8km mark because that is when the temptation to fall out is the highest. you know that once you have passed the 8km mark, there would be no turning back as it is really not worth it. it was truly a test of mental strength. the route march was made "interesting" with the inclusion of river crossing to make our bodies totally drenched and hence hurting the blisters that you have at the 19km mark. to end it all, we were required to go for a rifle range test immediately after we reached the end point. with 10 live rounds given, we had to hit at least a minimum score of 6 to pass. i tot i would fail the final test as i was seriously suffering from aches and stiffness on my shoulders. but, i told myself to just heck it. if its meant to be then its meant to be. thank God, i managed to hit 9 shots. it was greatness.

congratulations to fyedee! for passing his driving test! now i have a friend who drives a car and another who drives a 5 tonner plus a land rover.ahahaha. for fyedee, your next step should be getting a car! hahaha. that would make our lives more convenient.

just before i go for taiwan, i tot i should treat my family to dinner, since now i'm earning slightly more,hehe.so, if everything goes well, insyallah it would be at straitskitchen next sat. its not everyday that i have the opportunity to treat people..so i guess now is a good time to do so :)

quite excited for next week cos i'll be taking the helicopter for exercise Grandslam2! not sure if we're taking the apache or chinnup(not really sure of the spelling!ahaha) but i hope the weather would be fine so that we will not miss that opportunity. oh yar yar..since fyedee's b'day is next week, i suggest friends, we should organise something. and and if we are budget which is most likely the case, we could make him treat us! hehe. nonetheless, looking forward to meeting everyone even if it has to resort to eating at al-amin hawker centre!

i wanna watch lindsay lohan! Just my luck. but from the looks of it, i have to wait for the release of the vcd since none of my friends are actually fans of lindsay lohan.most of them prefer hilary duff, which i think is so crappy. hahaha