now, i finally got it! oh this is just to test if the picture comes out. btw, i love this pic with carol, dom, sam, fyedee, este and err..ilyas's half face!esplanade muse concert 06.oh, i miss hangging out with all of them! erm, ilyas pic was kindda cut, sorry!ahahaha

everything is moving very fast!
the big A'levels
prom at ritz
the dreaded enlistment to the army
all the shit stuff in tekong
devastation of A'levels results
passing out from that island of suffering
entering the most welfare sispec company, Golf coy
more trainings that i never wish to do again
ntu and nus acceptance letter
accepting nus
passing out from bslc
entering Echo coy
and the list goes on and on and on..

i miss acband.i miss the crappy stuff we do in school.i miss hagging out with my classmates.i miss my friends! i miss school.i miss playing the trumpet.i miss sitting down at the bleachers thinking about the tonnes of chapters and topics to study.i miss being a student.i miss reading lecture notes.i miss all that shit stuff that i experience the last 2 years. argh! i miss everything..

i guess if i tell the j2s this year about how much i miss school, they would really think i'm crazy. but seriously, i do miss it. life now kindda suck without school. its weird because when i was in school, i've always wanted to get out of it and just be free, not thinking about anything, not being stressed up and not being bothered by tests or exams. but now that every element of school life has been stripped from me, i feel empty and that there is really no more purpose. i lead day to day, hoping that the day would end and the weekend would come. there is really nothing to look forward to. and being in the army makes it worst. when in camp i lead my day by the activities that i'll be doing. when i wake up in the morning, the next thing on my mind is to sleep at night. that's all. that's how pathetic my life is now. it has degenerated into a life empty of meaning and purpose.

so, to make myself feel better, i always scan through the pictures in my computer to remind myself of the kind of life that i used to lead in the past. stressful as it may be, but it's definitely much more fun and interesting than it is now. so, here's a portfolio of some of the things that i went through the past years! (actually i thought the pictures should be accompanied by a powerpoint song,ahahaha, so as to create that "memories flashback" mood, but unfortunately, i do not know how to insert a song into my blog.wadever.)

ok, wait a minute. the pictures aren't coming out.argh! maybe next time when i've figured it out. *sighs*