firstly...

Anglo-Chinese Junior College band, GOLD WITH HONOURS!

congratulations :) supporting the juniors all the way!i'm damn proud of you guys! see tee yi hui, i told you acj will get the HONOURS.

oh, anyway good improvement for your juniors, getting GOLD this yr with symphonic overture! hehs.

and so, it has come to this. a realisation that i do not face any major problems or even any problems for that matter.probably the only problem that i'm facing now is the problem that i do not have any problems! all this while, when my friends pointed out to me that i have been living in this 'bubble' free from any problems or complications, i was in a state of denial. i didnt believe them at all. but as reality sinks in, i began to realise that this so called problem-free lifestyle is in fact truly happening and the unfortunate part is, its taking its toll on me. for some strange reason, i think i am loosing the ability to feel for things. basically, i'm turning into this emotionless piece of shit. its bad. really.

but.honestly, i kindda feel great living in this so-called 'bubble'. there's really no major worries and i thank Him for blessing this life of mine.

but but but...no worries. matin will not turn into an emotionless piece of robot because i have been doing a lot of thinking and reflections lately (even to the extent of reading this book entitled: the plain truth of things, role of values in a complex world!) to find my way back to things.

csm: a man-eating world out there!

this is indeed a complex world. everyone is unique and different in many ways. with that,i respect such differences and i hence i accept my friends for who they are. You may be a pain in the ass, weird, very abstract in your thoughts, expressive in nature, irritating in character, weak, hypocritical, a misfit, attention seeking or just a plain bitch but it is still perfectly fine with me because i look at you from a better perspective. nobody is a perfect friend or person. everyone has weaknesses, a side in them that everyone will hate. but so what? isn't it all about befriending an imperfect friend, perfectly.

just to let you know, i'm not taking sides but i'm rather disappointed at the resolution of this entire episode. for everything else, i have no comments.

to other stuff, i had a hectic week in camp but it was fun especially when i get to experience how the guards formation is amphibious in its operations! it was fuuuunnn!there was actually a split second in time where the thought of signing on went through my mind, thanks to my pc! but hahaha, don't worry laa. i won't do it. i just want to achieve an enriching life in national service, nothing more than that :)

commanders in arms!hehs:)

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past

I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need them again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but i just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions

music&lyrics:way back into love